A little bit of Holiday

Ethan our third child is now six weeks old, it has been a very emotionally taxing journey, but he is healthy now after he had pnemonia. God must have a very special plan for him. He was not planned, Kirsty's pregnancy with him was really tough on her and then with him getting pnemonia - God must have a plan!

Lauren our daughter is five and time has flown past. Each day I get to do less and less for her and realise more and more that she is growing older. Joshua our second child is wonderful. He is two and I must say that he has the ability to light up a room.

For now we are on holiday one that we have needed for a long time. Next week it is back to Cape Town and back to work.

For now a break

Ethan Hospitalized

Yesterday aternoon Ethan who is now four weeks was admitted to hospital, we almost lost him. He has pnemonia and according to the doctor s very sick. I am supposed to be at ist training for the church but have decided that my family needs me more.

This is a difficult for us he does seem better but the doctor says the infection has not yet begun to lift. We are tired emotionally and physically. Watching him to make sure he is ok. I am convinced he is in the best place possible but one always has a nagging feeling that something can go wrong. Now it is a waiting game. Shit!

Joe's the MAN

It is strange how life turns out for some. What is it that makes some people pick up a drink and never put it down again? While others can say no!

The past six months I have worked from an office in Plumstead. I have learn't a lot. Some evenings I leave feeling revitalised because of the people around the area, other evenings I leave saddened that for some people life is just so hard and not fair, feeling like a failure in myself for not being able to do something. Pete has wise words - We try to make a difference one day at a time. Let's see what tomorrow might bring.

Joe is old enough to be my dad I am sure and for whatever reason life has not always been kind to him. We try to make a difference in Joe's life but the choice i think has to be his. All we can do is offer him a hand. There are days that Joe takes the hand and days where he is unable to because the night before was not kind to his addiction.

But Joe is a kind helpful man and we love him.

Ethan Arrives

It was on Thursday night at 11:59 that Ethan decided to arrive. No induction, straight forward and natural. Kirsty is a "machine" when it comes to giving birth. I am so proud of her.

Ethan is perfect in every way and although he still needs to undergo some tests, those that have been done prove his good health.

God knew what he was doing when he made it the task of woman to look after and give birth to babies. Woman I salute you.

Things are not often what they seem

The last two weeks have been a rollercoaster if emotion. The due date for baby is the 9th of August, however the doctor is planning to induce labour on the 25th of July.

What has amazed over the last two weeks is the support that we have received from one of the local congregations in our circuit. This has truly gobsmacked me. I am not used to it. In fact it is something that I struggle with.

I have no problem being kind to others, but struggle to receive kindness for myself. It takes getting used to.

Peter the car gaurd that works round the corner from our church is having his birthday today, Beverley his partner dropped in to bring us some cake, thanks Beverley.

Happy Birthday Peter

Choices and choices

I am coming to the last stretch of my honors and now need to decide if i am going to go further and do my MA.

We received news over the weekend that Kirsty will not be going back to work and there is a small chance of Ethan (our unborn baby) being born blind or deaf, not good news.

It does however let me think about so many other families that have children with some or other disability. They seem to cope so well. Speaking to friend tonight she said something that only she could say because their family have been through something similar, her comment; You will get through it no matter what, you will look back and see that you have become stronger because of it. Her experience allows her to say this without sounding patronising. So now we wait and place all thingsin th hands of God.

Where faith Begins

Kirsty. my wife, was admitted to hospital yesterday. She is 33 weeks preganant and has needed some tests done becasue she has not been well. Kirsty comes home tommorrow but there is a chance that she will not return to work. With what Kirsty has there is a 10% chance that baby could be born blind or deaf. Ten percent is not much but enough to get a scare and be anxious for the next while. We as a family need to have faith and believe that baby will be born ok.

Andrew makes my Day

In the local congregation where my office is, is a young man who is blind and mentally challenged. He comes to the office at least once a week with his mom, the time spent with him makes my day. He is challenging me and teaching me how to work, chat and be with people that are different. Andrew is a lovable guy and is the same age as i am. I look for things that feel different so that I can share them with him. For now I am grateful for the journey that i am on, learning how to just be.... nothiong else